"It's a long road ahead."
I've heard this statement a lot lately. My initial response is "I know, I know."
When I stop and think about it, though, I wonder, do I know?
I'm notorious about having great ideas, getting them started, and then passing them off to someone who will continue it. Either that, or the project dies due to my lack of follow-through. This doesn't happen all the time. Maybe not even the majority of the time. But it happens. What I want to know is why.
After thinking a lot about this for a few days straight, it comes back to my need for control and my sense of fear.
I see things in the big picture. The postive in that is that I try to look at things holistically, getting to the root. A negative is that I can see how hard and how far one needs to go to accomplish the vision. Having the vision is great; getting there is hard and sometimes overwhelming.
This is where the fear comes in. With such a long road ahead, the chances for failure are much greater. So instead of pushing through, I checkout and give up. I've done this with relationships, workout routines, news articles, fighting temptation, and just about everything else.
I want the results. But I want them now without the journey.
That's why I think it's so important to follow up the "long road ahead" comment with one that is just as important:
"One day at a time."
Rest and reframing are so important each step of the way. It's the same idea as "baby steps" in What About Bob?.
That's what we need on this long and bumpy ride: rest stops.
The opportunity to refresh our minds, get a little nutrition, clean out the "waste" that has been stored on the journey so far. This is what I'm praying for now. I want to keep running the race, but I have to do it each day. I don't need to and can't run the next 50 years today. I just have to run today.
How the heck did Jesus hang out in the wilderness for 40 days? Despite the few paragraphs dedicated to this time in the bible, I'm almost certain it was just one day at a time.
Lent is long. The wait is long. Seeking reconciliation can be long. Life is long. You have to rest along the way.
It's a long road ahead. But it happens one day at a time.